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i don't believe that anyone feels the way i do about you now (07) [18 May 2005|06:36pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I GOT THE JOB! But no one can know, no one can ever know that I work at the Dot. I have to avoid seeing Spinner somehow. I'll find a way.

So um, I'm practically failing Mrs. Kwan's class. Yeah me and language artslanguage arts and I don't really mix together that well. I have a D and I am at risk for being kicked off the spirit squad. However I talked to Ms. Sauve and she said that if I could somehow raise my grade in that class to atleast a mid-C then I can stay on the spirit squad. So um, anyone want to tutor me? Yeah that would be GREAT.

I went to a party with Terri last night, it was someone from her school's party. It was fun, I drank a little bit though so I was kind of hungover today. I met some guy there, and um, well let's see what happens. The truth is that I am SO not over Jimmy.

Another party tonight :) the guy's going to be there.

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i even thought it was simple, to say the things i wanted to say (06) [17 May 2005|02:47pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Not much to say, just that I am really starting to get sick of school. I can't wait until summer. I hate how mine and Jimmy's locker are right next to eachother. I see him every day after every class, with alex, less than a foot away from me. I mean I'm glad they aren't acknowledging me but I hate being ignored by them, well atleast by Jimmy. I could seriously care less about Alex. I guess I kind-a still like him... alot. The sad thing is, I know he can tell that I do. I don't know if I told any of you but I'm going to the states for a few weeks in summer. All over too, New York to California. I'm way excited, I leave in June.

So I went to the dot today for a little bit, nonetheless it was boring. They called me to set up an interview yesterday. The interview its self was today. Cheeto-lady said she'd call me back tomorrow to let me know if I got it or not.

Someone have a party tonight. Yes, on a week day.

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And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you (05) [15 May 2005|08:19pm]
[ mood | busy ]

It feels great to know that when I've been worrying at problems at home, my boyfriend ex-boyfriend has been cheating on me with Alex. I don't know, I don't even know how I should respond. Why didn't he tell me in the first place? I feel like I was lied to, partically because I was. Okay so that's like what, 11 months down the drain? I wasted about a year of my life. But enough about that, it doesn't matter.

So I went shopping with Terri earlier today. It was a huge success, atleast for her, all i bought was a drink. I bought a ton of clothes, makeup, about everything you could imagine. It was about $200 all together, but hey I can afford it. Except not. My mother and I still aren't talking. I actually went out and applied for a job yesterday. What she said to me a week ago really got to me. I applied at the Dot, I saw Spinner there but I hope he didn't see me. Hazel Aden having a JOB is not exactly something cool. I should be getting a call in a few day's though for an interview.

Better go, I keep procrastinating and I still have Kwan's 4 page paper to write. Yeah I know, it's due tomorrow first hour.

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The strands in your eyes, they color them wonderful (04) [11 May 2005|09:48pm]
[ mood | embarrassed ]

I've been busy, and to tell you the truth, I don't even feel like writing in here NOW. But I got to do what I got to do.

My family has been consuming most of my time. Okay, like all of it. Apparently we're low on money right now, 'cause my father MAY be losing his business. Okay, not to seem TOTALLY stuck up, but.. I'm high maintenance, I always have been and that's just who I am. So suddenly I can't drive to practically any place anymore because of the rising gasoline prices? I don't save, I spend. I got into a fight with my mother last night, and we still really aren't talking. It's not my fault that my grades are dropping. Maybe it's because my two best friends, my boyfriend, and I are all in the same room. Lies, lies, lies. I told her I wasn't happy with us having to cut down on money. I told her that it was their fault not mine. She told me that if I wasn't happy that maybe I should actually help our family and get a job. ME? A JOB? I always help out, I'm there whenever she has her stupid fights with father, every single one!

I haven't been hanging out with any of you lately, :\ it kind of makes me sad. So I was thinking that maybe a bunch of you could come over this weekend. Sorry, I'm boring. I think I'm going to go on a shopping spree tomorrow, anyone want to come? God, I'm such a liar.

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Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better (03) [05 May 2005|02:59pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Jimmy came over tuesday and we watched Eurotrip, I've got great tastes in movies, ask anyone. It was late by the time the movie was over and everything. So to say the least, I was exhausted yesterday during school. Yeah uh, let's just say Mr. Simpson wasn't to happy with that. He kept calling on me, PURPOSELY, because it gave him some kind of sick humour.

So I came home yesterday from school and I spotted my mother in the kitchen with my father. She looked sad and my father looked hurt, but nonetheless when they noticed I was home they put on their bright and cheery faces. Yeah right, they can't actually expect me to fall for that, i'm not 2 years old. However I've decided not to let it get to me that much, if it was something earth shattering they'd tell me. Right?

Kwan overloaded me with homework last night and I wasn't in the mood to do it. So I invited Jimmy over to help me procrastinate. We just hung out in my room and talked and made out for like, ever. Thing's are great between us and I'm glad that we can just laugh and talk about the most randomest things, and then the next minute flirt and kiss. I've decided that there's no way that I'm going to let my horrible jealousy go and ruin everything. Plus, he would never cheat on me, never never, and I love that.

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In your eyes, love, it glows so, I'm bare-boned and crazy for you (02) [03 May 2005|03:21pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

I went to the Dot on Sunday. The original plan was to go by myself but then I recieved a text from Jimmy. So of course, I picked him up and we headed over there. So okay, we get there and Spinner and Chris had like a fight over Manny? I don't know, something like that, but that's atleast what it looked like to me. Correct me if I'm wrong. I felt ignored the rest of my stay there so I just ate my food and then left.

My mother said that she didn't want to me leave for the rest of the day so I practically sat around and watched movies with her. Then I headed out around 11 to get a smoothie and then when I came home, I found my father sleeping on the couch. Was that why my mother didn't want me to leave, because their fighting? I'm thinking yes, but my parent's don't really communicate with me that much so it's hard to know what's going wrong half of the time. So I'm kind-a worried, okay i'm worried a lot. Not to mention also worried about the relationship Jimmy and I have. Why is that girl Alex hanging with MY man? But he wouldn't... cheat on me.. would he? And about the other thing on my mind, like I said, I get REALLY jealous easily.

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But my god it's so beautiful when the boy smiles (01) [01 May 2005|12:48am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Of course you all knew you would end up seeing me on here because I'm apparently such a follower and everything. I'm not, I'm not However that's not the case, but I'll save the real reasoning anyways.

For any of you new to Degrassi or aren't quite sure who I am, I'm Hazel Aden. I'm 17 years old, in grade 11, and I'm on the spirit squad. You'll usually find me roaming the halls with Paige, Ashley, Spinner, Marco, and Jimmy right by my side. I have an incredible boyfriend Jimmy whom I have been dating for several months and things are still going strong. I recently took up yoga classes on the weekends, so that consumes a few hours of my time as well. I tend to get jealous really easily and am known for not speaking up enough.

So I hung out with Terri today, she seems to like the new school she's at. We went to see 'A lot like love' which was the best movie out there in my opinion, but honestly it was just great to get to talk to her again. We caught up on alot of gossip and other things.

Jimmy just called me a little bit ago so I'm going to end this so I can actually give him my full attention. Give me a call tomorrow if you'd want to get together to do something. Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams.

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